clamming up, yet again
when you’re so caught up in your own troubles, you think the world revolves around you. you’re the only one with worries, you’re the only one bugged with trouble. when so many thoughts and concerns ricochet in your head, it takes a big heave of effort to be selfless for a moment to realize there’s a worldful of people out there. all with their own problems, all frantically treading, trying to keep their head above water. you don’t have a monopoly of sorrows, afterall….
in the last days, i’ve realized this blog has functioned as my personal pressure valve: lets the surplus steam off, without getting really rid of the turmoil within. i have blogged about happy, sad, annoying moments. but when my heart jumps with glee, or when i’m in my darkest moods and really angry, somehow, words fail me. i don’t know if it’s the idea of opening myself fully to the world wide web or the fear that it would make me even more vulnerable, but when i’m at extreme emotional swings, i curl into myself and endure it alone. i don’t write. i can’t.
but then again, i just did, didn’t i? oh well, that was just my roundabout way of saying we’ve been having a lot of balls to juggle at the moment…
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15 Responses to “clamming up, yet again”
May 19th, 2005 at
ruthie,
kung anuman ang bumabagabag sa iyong isipan ay isipin mong pansamantala lamang. ang bawat lungkot ay may katapat na kaligayahan; sa bawat hirap ay may sarap; sa bawat unos ay may magandang araw na naghihintay.
gawing sandigan ang pananalig sa Panginoon, na lahat ng bagay na Kanyang ginagawa ay para sa ating kabutihan.
May 19th, 2005 at
AMEN.
either you hide, write or talk about it, whatever makes you feel better, do so. am just here.
May 19th, 2005 at
gusto mo ng chocolate?
May 19th, 2005 at
hi miss butterfly ruth,
that means you are not yet on the verge of breaking up and you still can hold your head up above the waters. the troubles maybe are not yet up to the brim. writing is good. it is a therapy. go on with it. beautiful words come out of your system during these perplexing situations. God is always there, too, and I know you know it. He’ll listen. God Bless!
May 19th, 2005 at
basta walang hiatus ha
ruth, as per previous comment RE Demarses Village, behind Elen´s… Hmmm hindi ba kina MOMMY yun, or at least yun ang tawag sa place.
May 19th, 2005 at
Its hard for me to write specifics but I do treat my blog as a pressure valve for the light frustrations. It really helps to know I have an audience who sympathizes (or usually do). Hope all is well and that you and your husband have the strenght and resources to juggle it all with grace!
May 19th, 2005 at
hi ruthie — hugs to you dear. don’t worry as with everything it will pass. i, too have my own turmoil in my life and it’s so therapeutic to share a bit of it online. i feel so much better now, not quite but a lot better than i was a few days back.
((((hugs))))
May 19th, 2005 at
THAT (ano man ‘yan), too, shall pass…
May 19th, 2005 at
I don’t know the degree of your problems. But everything is relative. I will then realized that my problems are nothing compared to many other people. I look at these as challenges, and something that will make me stronger.
Life eh parang “gulong” minsan nasa ibabaw, minsan eh nasa ilalim.
“When I hear somebody sigh, ‘Life is hard,’ I am always tempted to ask, ‘Compared to what?’”
-by Sydney Harris-
Ingat na lang….
ron
May 20th, 2005 at
Ruthie, of late I have been finding it more and more difficult to write — about anything. There are so many things to say, so many things happening — but I do not know why for some reasons, I do not even know where to begin. I don’t know where my creative juices have gone to. I used to sit before the PC and the words would just flow. Now… it’s like an old car that badly needs some oiling or whatever.
May 20th, 2005 at
thanks for the commiseration, guys, but it nothing really bad. i think yupki captured it better: there’s so many things happening and words just wouldn’t make its way out of my brain onto this blog. it wouldn’t be right naman to just simply narrate stuff, parang nagsasayang lang ako ng space sa www, hehehe….
ron, oo nga naman, no? compared to what? witty!
jing, hindi yung kay mommy. may isa pa, mas malaki, yung kapareho ng may-ari nung nasa tapat ng F.O. delos santos, katabi ng ankers. potek, ang hirap ng tumatanda!
May 20th, 2005 at
haay madalas yang nangyayari sa akin,mas mainam pa telefono nasasabi ko lahat eh, kaya kung gusto mong kakulitan ‘call’ ka lang,k?
May 20th, 2005 at
ruth and jing: err…leandro’s ba ang tinutukoy niyo? yun lang alam kong katabi ng ankers. ay! cel’s resto pa pala (may ari din ng dating campus inn.
yupki and ruth: relate ako diyan, pag madami nangyayari sabay-sabay, di ko maisulat. don’t know where to begin and what to focus on.
like now…
May 20th, 2005 at
glo, natumbok mo! i was actually referring to campus inn!
September 28th, 2006 at
Vodafone Contract…
Vodafone Contract…