for as long as i can remember sleep has always been my comforter when faced with problems, exams, and other unwanted stuff. when i’m troubled or stressed, i get sleepy. pretty inconvenient, frustrating even to me, but it’s a self-protective instinct, i think.

if sleep fails, procrastination rears its head. i am a champion at putting off doing things i must, but hate, to do, whether its something as mundane as pressing the laundry, or as vital as a trip to the gynecologist. over the years i have also developed the habit of turning a blind eye, a deaf ear, to things that don’t please me. if i can’t change it, i simply pretend it doesn’t exist, and focus instead on the things i opt to see through my rose-colored lenses. i go along my merry way and ignore unpleasant things, places, events… even people.

on one hand, this is, as i’ve said, self-protection. as a result, i seldom get affected by negative things, or more accurately said, by things that i perceive as negative. on the other hand, it’s a sort of escapist’s trick. like an ostrich sticking its head in the sand in the face of danger. instead of confronting the issue, i back off and recoil into my shell, a comfortable world impenetrable to things that are beyond what i am wiling and able to handle.

i know this isn’t productive, but at least i’m not being destructive.

how do YOU cope with unpleasant stuff?

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