mia vida
when my arms get numb bearing her weight,
when my feet get sore from walking her to and fro,
when my ears begin ringing from the sound of her cries,
when i nurse her for the fourth time in as many hours,
when jan tells me “mom, can you help?” and i’ve no choice but to say “later” because mia is in yet another tantrum,
when i look at my feet and realize i’ve been wanting to have a pedi for the last half year,
when i encounter job descriptions on the saturday paper that match my qualifications,
when i see my husband in the kitchen, washing the dishes or cooking our dinner yet again,
when my friends bid me goodbye as they go for a holiday,
when i see the last three boxes yet to be unpacked,
when i see the layer of dust on top of the bookshelf,
and in many many more instances…
i wish mia would grow up faster. that she’d already be 6 months, 1 year, perhaps 3 years old. so that i could regain my life, and have the time to do the million other things i need to do but have put on hold because of her. so that life returns to normal.
and then i realize that this, this is normal life.
come to think of it, everyone has a “mia” in their lives. maybe not a new baby, literally. but something that’s up there in their list of priorities, something that keeps them from doing those that are less urgent, less pressing. something that has taken over their lives so much that leaves energy or time for little else.
what’s the “mia” in your life right now?
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2 Responses to “mia vida”
August 12th, 2008 at
that’s true, ruth. i felt the same way when amelie was less than a year old. then i realized that rather than wanting her to grow up fast i’d savor every moment of her baby stage. it’s true what they say, that kids grow up fast. now that amelie’s almost two, i do miss her baby stage.
August 13th, 2008 at
i know, tin. sometimes, i look at jan and mia and wish the opposite din: that i could hold back time so i can savor nga every moment. sometimes kasi, parang there are so many things happening all at once, i can’t keep up.
on the other hand, on those difficult days, parang gusto ko namang i-fast forward, haha!